stasis

My life right now feels like I'm in stasis. Something where I am not moving at all, but appear to be seeing everything changing without my interaction or participation. An observer watching the daily grind of others, desperately wanting to be part of the mill, but rueing the inevitability of being a cog back in the machine.

This is the second round of unemployment for me in the last few months. Given that I just relocated to Australia, I'm not so concerned about it (also given the ~4% unemployment rate here). However, it is drudging up those old feelings of uselessness and depression that I felt during that time. Just like Pavlov's dog, I've conditioned myself to react quite well to this re-challenge.

One good thing about this round of unemployment is that I have a partner in crime - Linneh E. Being a bum is much better with a co-bum. We're spending our days looking for work, talking about what we want to do here in Australia, where to live, how to live, discussing the lifestyle options of our pro-green - pro-sustainability housemates, dealing with shipping agents and wrangling with international banking. Little things that all add up and fill our day.

Hence, we're quite bored, and really want to find some work.